Thursday, February 26, 2009

Welcome To Marshall

When I first made my blog I promised to post some of my writing.  It slipped my mind until now, but there's a paper I wrote at the beginning of the semester about my first (current) college roommate, Kierstin Elliott.  The assignment involved writing about location and identity.  The draft below is my first draft (my English teacher disagreed with my comments about Detroit and made me saturate my final copy with her ideas of Detroit, so I refuse to claim the revised version as my own)  Regardless of my improvements thereafter, I was still 'awarded' a B-  You read it, you decide.

I've never taken a dance lesson, but when I heard her style was "too pure", I knew what it meant.  But what was I to expect? She grew up in a small town.

Kierstin Elliott, my first college roommate, grew up in Utopia, half way between Jackson and Kalamazoo, Michigan.  If you can't find it on a map, drive westbound on Interstate 94 and look for a "Welcome to Marshall" signpost.  During my first visit to Marshall, I was enthralled by the town's quaintnance.  There was not a single time we left her house without running into an acquaintance.  We ran into family friends walking into the grocery store, a set of friends at the checkout and yet another friend walking back to the car.  Kierstin explained that this, and the way people sometimes waved to us as we drove downtown, is due in part to her being directly or indirectly acquainted to half the people in town.  That would make sense.  Marshall is knowing for being a solid community strongly devoted to the arts.  Kierstin performed in every musical put on by the local company since she could walk.  Her and the majority of the town.  She believe growing up in Marshall was the sole reason she chose to major in theatre and dance.

Although Marshall bears a unique quality, it lacks diversity, making college in Detroit not only a culture shock, but also a thrust into an ill-natured town Kierstin has yet to become accustomed to.  Growing up in a cradle of trust, she was unconscious of the heartless soul the big city embodies.  Intrigued by Detroit's diverse nature and the number of opportunities at hand, it was hard for her to pass up an invitation.  In fact, she has yet to turn one down.  This was to be expected, of course.  The only social gatherings to look forward to in Marshall were cast parties after the annual Nutcracker performance or ice cream socials following the spring musical.  I was afraid for her at first.  She would bounce out of bed in the early hours of the morning to accept an invitation to a local, or unlocal party.  She trusts easily, just as she was able to in Marshall, embracing every new 'friend' in her circle of trust.  As a suburban Detroiter, i knew the city was not a place to let my guard down.  But I had to hold myself back from warning Kierstin of these dangers.  In fact, I'm glad I have because she has undoubtedly benefitted from accepting every invitation that has come her way.

To an aspiring dancer, exposure is key.  Although Marshall pledged itself to art appreciation, dancers from the town's studio were given no chance of exposure beyond city limits.  In Detroit, Kierstin appreciates the amount of exposure she has attained not only to a broader audience but also to guest residents.  In contrast to dance majors who grew up in the limelight, who tend to take an audition for granted, Kierstin takes every opportunity that comes her way seriously.  Although her style may be "too pure" and homegrown compared to Detroit's raunchy hip-hop brand or competitive atmosphere, her purity in dance and willingness to except opportunity as it comes her way will only allow her to broaden her horizons as she continues her education in dance.

Next time your driving westbound on Interstate 94, look for the "Welcome to Marshall" signpost.  Let the town enchant you.  On your way out, look for the "Now Leaving Marshall" signpost.  Take a peek at the fine print near the bottom and it may read something like "Proceed with Caution!"  Kierstin took that risk and has ran with it.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Simply Praising

There was an overwhelming amount of anticipation for today.  I haven't been going to church regularly for the past 6 months or so.  That changes today.  I love the new church I'm attending =)

Church today was wonderful.  Singing, Praising, Praying.. the way church should be.  No "Playing Church".  Giving more than getting.  Simply praising.

www.myrestoration.org

Friday, February 20, 2009

He Speaks

Something amazing happened tonight.

I was driving home, praying.  Asking for forgiveness, and for some reason I felt as if I couldn't accept it.  I felt as if my sins were so great that forgiveness was out of reach.  Why would anyone want to forgive me after doing the things I do? I mean, c'mon?

I just about gave up.  I really thought He won't forgive me anymore.  I felt as if forgiveness had run out.  We just talked about this in Bible study last night so I have no idea why I felt the way I did.

I clicked on a radio station to get my mind off of the matter.  The Dave Matthews Band song that goes "Where are you going?" was on.  It was at the part in the song that that phrase is repeated over and over again.  I felt as if God was saying that to me.  Where am I going?  He wanted to forgive me.  He poured it out and set it there on the table for me.  I just wasn't using it.  Wow.  I felt amazed and ashamed all at the same time.

Better yet, I'm pulling in my garage and (now I'm listening to a Christian station) a song that constantly repeats something like (Urr.. I forgot the exact lyrics already and it's only been 15 minutes!) 'Nothing you do will stop me from forgiving you... my arms are opened wide'

He speaks. He knows when, too!

Monday, February 16, 2009

Amazing

So now I see what He was up to..

I now get all day Sunday off this coming weekend - what more could I ask for? Church & time to get some stuff done during the day!! (Can not thank Melissa enough!)

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Confused

It's pretty easy to go from a state of excitement to disappointment.  I was very giddy the past few days because I finally found someone to work my Sunday shift!  My prayer had finally been answered!

Until today when I came home and found out the girl who was going to take my hours decided against them.  Putting me back in Square One.

I'm not sure why this is happening.  I'm not sure why God wants me to work on Sunday mornings rather than go to church and worship Him?  I trust that He knows what's best for me and is leading me down the exact path I need to take.  I'm just a little confused as to why this is what He wants.

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Motivation

I was listening to a Christian music channel on the way to work today (103.5) They were playing some song and one of the lines went "Help me be kind to all man kind"  Let me tell you, when you're about to spend 9 hours in a pharmacy serving unruly customers, this is DEFINITELY the motivation you need to get through your day.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

My Restoration

You want to know what one of the most wonderful things about God is?  He knows what you want even when you don't tell him.  I'm not trying to say "you don't need to pray", but even when you don't, he still knows you fully & completely.  After all, he's all-knowing!

The reason I bring that up is because for the past few months I've had this idea in the back of my mind that I find a new church home.  I've grown up a Lutheran, attended a Lutheran grade school, high school school & done all the routine Lutheran things.  For some reason, and I'm not putting a blame on the Lutheran church I grew up in or anybody affiliated with that church, I haven't experienced faith: God living in me, through that denomination.  I've sat through the sermons at 6 different Lutheran churchs throughout my life and none did anything to inspire me as a Christian in any way, shape or form.  So my amazing story about God in this is that although I never prayed to find a new church home, not even once, he's set one out on a silver plater for me & I am so pumped to experience this new church!

This new church is called My Restoration.  Jesse's family recently became affiliated with it, but I haven't been given the oppurtunity to attend yet.  In fact, at first I thought I wasn't going to be able to attend.  Worship, like most churches, is at 10:30 on Sundays.  I work at 10 on Sundays (but am trying and praying very hard to somehow work something out to get Sundays off!).  But oh no, God wasn't going to let me down!  I was sad I wouldn't be able to attend on Sundays, after all, I thought this was the answer to what I've been looking for.  But God spoke to me in the extraordinary way he does & just earlier this week I found out about Thursday night Bible study.  Jesse is going tonight & I can't wait to hear from him about it!  Next week, I am going. I AM SO PUMPED!

I love how God has the ability to make things so conveinant!

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Wonderful Things & Overwhelment

Today was a day FULL of blessings!  First off, I didn't have to do any homework.  That's right.  After class I got to drive home to see my wonderful boyfriend Jesse & we got to go to the Pistons game!  Not just any normal Pistons game, that's for sure.  His dad has some pretty amazing season tickets that include the Caesar Windsor Club, an up-scale restaurant in the Palace with tons of food at our disposale, including dessert!  We had a great time & can't stop thanking God for allowing us the ability to do things like this.  We are truly blessed!

On the other hand, my life has recently become the most overwhelmed situation I've lived through thus far through my life.  There is no need to go into great detail, but the gist of it is that I am working WAY too many hours on the weekend & going to school full time (and not to mention having to keep a GPA to stay in the Honors program I'm in, and not to mention, the fact that I was even considered for that program (& then actually got into it) is a major blessing in and of itself, but is a MAJOR reason why I am almost always stressed out).  I know "work and school" is what most college kids put up with.  But for some reason, it seems like it's much more overwhelming for me than the people I am surrounded by.  But maybe I just don't know their situations.  Nonetheless, I am making noteable strides to "fully rely on God" over the next two and half months.  Although sometimes it seems like life is overwhelming & I'm going to get through this situation, I need to fully rely on Him.  Only He can be my path: my way, my truth & my LIGHT.  Amen.

Let's end with a blessing.  Actually, I think this is so important I'm going to give it it's own post.  Coming soon.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Mission Statement

I am the type to start things that look appealing then totally forget about them later.  That is my counter-mission to this blog.  I've started numerous blog sites in the past in high hopes of becoming a regular blogger.  Since, I've come to the realization that regular blogging is weak.  Often, there is nothing to blog about.  Life gets busy, the blog can wait.  This blog will encompass a plethora of ideas.  My life.  My faith.  My faith is my life so I suppose that is just one aspect, not two.  My writing.  Although I am a pre-pharmacy major, good writing is my hobby.  Maybe I will tell tales of the pharmacy.  I have a wonderful boyfriend, I might talk about him, too.  Maybe I'll blog about none of the above, we will see.  To God be the glory.